An Apology.

So... I recently got into a situation where a bit of a problem was made manifest, and though it wasn't required, I wrote this apology to the member of the third party who was indirectly involved.

Let me tell you something. Something I should have told you a long time ago... I love her. I love her more than life itself. I would move the world for her. I would give up my life for her. I love her so much. And I have for a very long time. You know... How some people you wouldn't think you'd get close to, but after a short period of time, you start to see that they've become part of your life? I would never have imagined that she and I would be so close. But, we got close. So close. And then, while we were both focused on the past, she suddenly moved on. She chose you, because she didn't know... How I felt. And that was my fault. Just call me Gatsby...

I'll tell you this. I never ever would attempt to take her away from you. You make her happy. And my feelings for her make me want only one thing for her. I want her to be happy. So happy. And that means... That I let her be with you. Heck, I pushed her to be with you. My opinion might not have mattered too much, but I told her to go for it. Because with you, she gets to be so happy. And that's all I ever wanted.

Now. I do not excuse myself. What happened between her and I was not correct. Not something I was searching for openly, but not something I was adverse to either. I wanted to kiss her because that's a desire that I'd had for some time. But I KNOW that despite my feelings, I would not have done so. Because it's not my place. What happened, even though nothing really did, is not right. And for that, I am very truly sorry. It was not my intention.  

I am to blame here. I misread a few things, and started to act on a feeling. One I'd tried to bury. To change, even. I've been moving on, and finding someone else, and we've been working on what goes on between us. This incident is the first and last time anything like that has or will happen.  She did nothing wrong. It was me, and only me. And for that... You cannot imagine how sorry I am.  I realize asking for forgiveness is hard, but I ask that you forgive me and not hold it against her.  

Now. I don't know I'd he'll ever read this. And I hope he doesn't have to unless he needs one. But this is important. And that's why it's here.