Nobody Said...

It would be easy.

So what? So we made some choices they didn't like? So they took it out on me, made it impossible to see you, sometimes even to talk with you. What does it matter?! That doesn't mean they hate you. They don't like what we've done, and what decisions I've made, but it doesn't mean they hate you. Or that they think you're a slut. They believe that you shouldn't have spent time with guys alone when you have a boyfriend. Or that I shouldn't spend so much time with you alone because I'm an adult and you're a minor. Don't ask me why. I don't know. It's not clicking with them, because it's not logical. It doesn't make sense. And I curse logic, because this is what happens.

But you have to understand... You have to. Because if you don't, you will forever feel bad. And I will too. They do these things to protect me, and you to an extent. That doesn't mean they hate you! If there's one thing I wish I could get across to you, it's that they don't hate you!! They like you as a person. My mother really likes you. My family does. They want me to get married to you. They think it would actually be a good idea. You realize that this is a large indicator of the fact that they truly do like you, right? They've been pushing for it, and waiting for it, and wanting it. They know that for whatever reason, you and I are meant to be together. And they WANT it!

I don't know what will convince you. I wish you could spend time with my family. Let me show you. So that you no longer have to feel that way. I love you.... So much. I don't like to argue with you over this. I know what you're feeling. What you're thinking. But you don't know what goes on. You can only think... And feel, but you only have half the message. You don't know what I know. And I have run out of ways to convince you... And it hurts that you hurt so. I can't stop... I want you to not feel bad... Not feel like you're hated. Or disliked. I want to make it all go away, so that you can truly understand. And I'm sorry that I lack the means to do so. Because you mean so much... I love you so much, you cannot imagine... And I'm sorry... :'(